|Book Of Secrets (standard:drama, 849 words)|
|Author: CJ||Added: Jun 06 2006||Views/Reads: 1780/0||Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)|
|This is the prologue only - a psychological drama about one's reasoning through life.|
PROLOGUE I never envisioned my life to take a turn such as this, though I consider myself lucky that my upbringing was well taken care off; attending school right through University, a career in the Fire Brigade, great parents and a wonderful circle of friends, we all tend to dwell and reminisce about the bad times, incidents that left us scarred, a hatred towards a life that directed us to events that we shouldn't have confronted in the first place, sorrow that filled us with an overwhelming sense of dread and melancholy. I bet that when you sit down and list on a piece of paper the good and bad times, those wonderful memories of days where you laughed with family and friends, the pleasure trips you took with them, experiencing the joys of traveling, these would definitely out weight those depressing days where you just wanted to dig yourself a hole and crawl into it, never coming out! Try it. You'll be surprised. Here I am telling you this when in fact I had gone through a state of depression, suicide, psychiatric counseling and saying to myself that the world had nothing to offer me. I look back at those days and shake my head, embarrassed with myself, feeling silly that I actually thought I was emotionally unstable. Yes, I do look back every now and then seeing the changes in my life, what I went through then and how it is now, But I was growing up; I wasn't mature enough to understand life! There are problems in this world far greater to be concerned about than the sordid life I lead and the misery I felt but its human nature to agonize about your own life. We all want to be perfect, we all want to lead a great and wonderful life and we all want to be happy! And when this doesn't happen, the depression sets in, abhorrence towards life and you begin to question why this was happening. There are a lot of stories written about life, dilemmas, and one's journey through existence, biographies about famous people and what they went through to become what they are now, the life they had lead, stories of wretchedness, horror and death. Alone you're not for there are people in this world who are in a worse position. Think about it! I do. I have a roof over my head, a job, a partner and friends. But I do sometimes feel alone and that is natural. I get over it though because I have those things and I know that I can overcome these dreaded feelings of alienation and sorrow that life causes. A strong will, patience and analyzing the situation to restore that wrong and make it right, make it happen the way you want it, do it the way you feel is correct. Take control over the situation and you may find that not only will you succeed but your life will become much better for it. How much I tried this, and just like a baby learning to take the first few steps then falling, ashamed that the first try was unsuccessful, the tears would come then you try again and fall again. Persevere and it will happen. It took a long time for me to keep gathering the strength and forcing myself to undertake the ultimate task of self control but I did succeed though it wasn't easy. The Book of Secrets is an inspiration, an adventure into life's unknown territories, a journey that captures the emotion of all that one believes in, of haunting memories and an exploration through society where boundaries are taken to extremities. The emotions run high, like a roller coasters where it then plunges to such depths that one deep breath could cause your heart to stop beating. It is a story about love gone wrong, about a life distressed and about a world where growing up to manhood was a passage of self discovery. Closed doors can lead you to nightmares but they can also open an endless reign of opportunities. It sometimes was a game where you see how far you can go before hitting bottom and then timing yourself to see how long it would be before you were able to get back on your feet and try again. And again. And again. My final words; I have learned to cope. I have made decisions and whether they were right or wrong, I had to live with the results, the outcome that at some stage not only destroyed my credibility but my heart as well. There would be endless nights where I could not control my tears, the heartbreak which took so long to heal. But as they say, time heals all wounds, and I did heal. This story is written in two variations; one, where you will experience the journey through my views, telling it the way I see it and the second through the eyes of a person who had been a special part of my life. Charlie J Vella – Copyright © 2006 Tweet
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