|Tearful Tinctures Under Cabbage Green Skies (standard:romance, 393 words)|
|Author: Cyrano||Added: Jan 11 2009||Views/Reads: 1741/0||Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)|
|Is it wrong to want to write beautifully...|
There has never been a golden day since the day she journeyed, only days that shine. Then there are those days when nothing in the world seems brilliant or clever or ordinary, and these begin in a variety of ways, but mostly they just have to be got through, like cutting through tough steak, chewing in a way as to make each mouthful tender for the sake of the cook. This is life, don't you think? Days like dried meat, chewing through it somehow, and wondering if it will ever be so tender again. It's hard to write beautifully on days like this, in fact it's hard to write anything at all. Her leaving cleared the page. Yet still I want to be inspired to fill these new pages with something beautiful or interesting or worth drawing attention to. There's no reason to smile when she comes into my mind, but some feeling overwhelms me, remembering like the astronaut who remembers stepping on the moon, looking down on every other man who wished as a kid that he, too, might one day stand on the moon instead of skipping down sidewalk, toffee round his mouth. It's easy to love when days shine out golden, when everything is interesting and alive, to look and find you have this beautiful woman in your life. But I'm exiled to life, a stage where I continue to play, existing among other sweeping tragedies, the comforting hand of the shoreline on my shoulder. On my best days I imagine the quiet spectral humanity in an imageless universe, her dancing beneath a glass orchestra, its nocturnal melodies a séance of two hearts speaking. On my worst days I turn silence into words, nights to dreams, and what is unutterable I speak. This is how I make my whirling world stand still. I am friends with every momentary hallucination, seeing an ocean before a church, legions of leviathans before horse carts on highways, a coral reef before a drawing room of friends, envious of the blissfulness in which she resides. Is it wrong to want to write so beautifully that every man will say, let him speak for me, and every woman say, I want to live in that man's heart. I'll never stand on the moon, but I will say farewell in poems that might one day become ballads. Tweet
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