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|do you know how i feel, friend? (youngsters:other, 597 words)|
|Author: homeydd||Added: Mar 15 2004||Views/Reads: 4902/0||Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)|
|portrays the feelings hidden in my heart that my friend still doesn't know...been trying to let her know about it a few times, but i don't think i have the courage to break it to her.|
I didn't get to know her till my second or third day in the polytechnic, where I'd just started my tertiary education. But when I finally did, oh gosh, she was such a sweet and quiet girl, a little shy too. I still remember my first words to her: "Is your name wen2 qing1 or wen2 qing4 (that's in 'hanyu pinyin'/mandarin)?". Well, for the first two months or so, she seemed to me a really nice girl - went home straight after school mostly. A good girl. I thought I'd found the "perfect" friend after all, having been shy, quiet girl back in secondary school. I found someone who is just like me. She was probably one of the best of the best kinda friend that ever stepped into my life, and I thank God for this wonderful friend. ;) Time flew by, and things changed. Almost totally changed. And that was kinda like a blow to me in a way. She became outspoken "all of a sudden". Think of a bomb. It was because of that that I started to feel down more often. Another classmate of mine just simply, I'd say, stole her away from me. Oh that almost tore me apart! Things weren't the same as they were when we first met, and I wished time would always stay at that period where nobody had to "steal" her from me. I know this might sound selfish, but hey, you wouldn't feel good too if someone snatches your best friend away. How I felt like punching that girl who upset our relationship! That idiot. Nevertheless, I want Wenqing to be happy - true friends will want you to be happy, right. That was why I didn't want to make her unhappy even though how sad I was. So, almost everyday, I'll just watch and listen to her and that classmate joking around like crazy girls, etc. I don't blame her at all, though I may be a little upset with her for not understanding how I felt. She IS a nice girl, until that stupid classmate lay pressure on her. What was worse was that she pressurized Wenqing change the way she dresses and all that. That b**** controlled her and my poor friend was totally oblivious to it! It was like if she told Wenqing to eat shit, the latter just obeyed. She didn't even have her own stand. How stupid and foolish! sigh... I just couldn't stand her! I mean, everyone has his or her own style, which portrays their uniqueness. And even if Wenqing were to change her dressing sense, I won't mind, but just let her change it slowly. You can't expect everything to change in a twink of the eye. That's totally absurd. Forcing people to change for your own benefit really urks me. F*** that classmate of mine. God, I just wish that Wenqing will know about my feelings. Take off the blindfold that my classmate has placed around her...most of all, I just pray that Wenqing will have the wisdom to differentiate what's right and what's not. Don't let her be a fool, God. Make her really THINK clearly about what's going on. Don't ever let her be so clueless again... ps *Wenqing, if you're ever reading this, I just wanna let u noe that i'm sorry if i kinda used crude language for this. Didn't mean it at all. Just hope that you'll "come to your senses" one day...for your own gd, fren. Really don't wanna see you end up being tossed here and there by others. Tweet
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