|The Chance (standard:romance, 2979 words)|
|Author: Cheryl Ann||Added: Sep 04 2006||Views/Reads: 2032/1212||Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)|
|This is a story of a chance taken, a chance missed and maybe a chance for a happy ending|
The Chance I was so alone, with so many feelings inside hidden from the outside world with my smile, with my actions. No One really knew the woman I am. My hopes and dreams, my failures and my fears. I feel as though no one will ever know me, will ever love me, will ever take the opportunity to feel me. I was ready to make a change, to once again venture into life again, but this time it was going to be different. I was going to take those risks I was so afraid of, take the chance of another broken dream another break in my heart. Heart break is something I know so much about, I just wanted an opportunity to see if I could survive it again. I don't know that I will... I have been told I am an attractive woman, petite in shape and barely 5 feet 4 inches tall if I hold my head high. Blonde with green eyes that can lead you to my very soul should you take the time to look. People often forget to look into each others eyes and oh the wonders they have missed. I decided it was time to look into someone else's eyes again and to allow them to see mine. I as many have in this so very fast moving world had made many anonymous friends on the big world of the internet. Even tried internet dating for awhile, I met some genuine and good people as well as those that were not really sincere, those that were looking for a quick fix in order not to face another night alone. I kept in touch with a few people I had met this way and I found that as I moved on with my life some of these people found a way back into this life of mine. This time was to be different though. I was going to approach life full on with all the honesty and trust I had within me. When I felt something I was going to say so, when I cared I was going to say that too. I found that deep inside I still had that need to believe the best in people. To truly want someone to know me, and I was going to cast all of my old misconceptions and rules aside. I was finally going to allow myself to really feel and live today and feel today. I just knew that there was someone waiting for me. Someone that would accept me as I am and not take a piece of my heart and leave me full of self doubt and shame. I am a woman after all and when a woman takes a risk, there is always a chance of shame. The things that happened next were not what I expected, but then few things in life are. I only wish that people would be kinder to one another and realize when someone places their arms around you and looks into your eyes they are giving you a gift. A gift of great magnitude, a gift that should not be taken lightly and should at the very least be cherished for what it was. A human being reaching out to share a piece of their soul, a deep view into their heart. The contact was unexpected. A note appeared in a window on the cold computer screen. I had had some messages from this man in the past; Lovely excerpts all of romantic interludes. I thought they were unreal that he was unreal, just pretty words typed on a keyboard and perhaps even transmitted too many women at once. I was hopeful though and when the notes became more personal and of a nature that was more realistic, I let my guard down and I decided to allow the contact. He shared things that had been happening in his life, I did the same. We laughed and we talked more and more, and of course the teasing dance of flirtation began. Such a gentleman, he did not live near me and only asked for the opportunity to meet me, he would book a hotel near her home and we would take that special chance. A chance to see if words written on a keyboard could actually be more than words. So he called, we spoke, we laughed and it felt so good to finally connect with another human being Someone that seemed to be feeling the same happiness and joy at the sound of my voice just as I felt the joy of his. Hope began again, plans were made. We would soon take that chance and meet. I had a grown child that needed me, not that she lived so very far but it would take me further away in distance from this chance of perhaps a true connection with someone that I somehow felt destined to meet. As life is full of changes and destinies there was another chance circumstance. I returned home for one day and waited to make my return journey back to my child and just on a whim, I turned on my computer screen. His name was there, no others, just his. My heart began to race, should I answer or should I act as though I hadn't seen it. He Click here to read the rest of this story (174 more lines)
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