The Just Dreaming Phase (standard:drama, 1827 words)
Author: Lori	Added: May 12 2004	Views/Reads: 3286/2098	Story vote: 0.00 (0 votes)
Re-worked it! Thought about it! There's a follow up to come. Thanks for reading it, let me know what you think.

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The man of my dreams is totally complete with me, doesn't need anyone
else. He's happy with the life we have, doesn't look for something new. 
It's us, only us, and the kids. 

I think I dream too much. I don't think that there's anyone out there
that is what I want. So I guess I'm just like all the men out there, 
I'm looking for just one type of man. No other will do! 

It's not based on looks; don't think looks make a person. You can be
God's gift to women/men and still be a pain in the ass! Or you can be 
the ugliest person in the world, and still have feelings. That's what 
people need to remember. We aren't just shells walking around! Everyone 
has feelings! They may just not be able to show them, or they protect 
ourselves by not showing them. 

I'm not saying that beauty doesn't count. Yes, you have to be attracted
to the person. Why can't we take a look on the inside every once in a 
while? It's the heart that counts! It's the way a person makes you feel 
that counts! Beauty is going to fade, the love you have for someone 
isn't. 

In an age where beauty counts, there are still people out there that
aren't our ideal mate. But if we don't give them a try, then we may be 
losing the best thing that has ever entered our lives. 

I love to please my partner, in any way, shape, or form. If I haven't
tried it before, I'll try it, if it makes him happy. If I'm comfortable 
enough with him there‘s no boundaries. 

I love to make love, anything sexual. I'm not dead! I'm just stuck with
someone who I can't totally lose myself with. There's always this one 
certain something that doesn't let me go. It's like there's a brick 
wall up between us. And I can't, or won't, knock it down. 

In my dream I'm in a bed of roses, being worshiped. Our souls are linked
together. It's hard to tell where one of us begins, where the other 
ends. It's magical! It's beautiful! It's plain and simply true love. 
It's hearts linking together, knowing what you both want or need before 
the other can do it. It's the dream that is so hard to believe that 
it's real. It's being in love, getting loved in return. 

It's knowing what he/she's going to say before they say it. It's the
soul-searching look when they look at you. The love is right there in 
the eye. They don't care who sees it. They want everyone to know that 
they love someone. They want people to know they are loved back by 
someone. 

It's the pain of parting when they leave in the mornings. It's the smile
you get on your face when they come home at the end of the day. It's 
the first kiss of the morning, the last kiss at night. It's the 
cuddling and wrapping your arms around her, before you fall asleep. 
It's the first stroke when you make love, first kiss when passion is 
rising. It's knowing that you fit, totally and complete fit with 
someone. That is the just dreaming phase of life! 

The reality is screwing someone because they've griped about it long
enough. It's the "Ok, just get it over with", saying when you really 
don't feel like it. It's the "I have a headache tonight." That's 
reality. 

But in my dream world, it's sweet and beautiful. It's full of passion
and fire, full of "This feels so right!" In my dream world the kids are 
perfect; don't give you any trouble. There's no fighting, no hollering 
and screaming. There's no division between child and parent. 

Why can't we escape to this dream world more often? Why can't this be
reality? Why can't all the bad stuff just be a nightmare that you get 
to wake up from? 

Why? Because no one's perfect in this world! No one is going to find the
perfect person for him or her that person doesn't exist. The one that 
does, is the one you are with. 

Do we settle for love? Or do we just settle for what we can get? Do we
just get comfortable in life? Is there too much at stake to change? How 
high is the price of love? And who would really pay that price? How far 
do people go for love? Would you really die for love? Or would you just 
let love die? These are questions I ask myself every day. I still 
haven't figured out the answers. 

I thought I met my ideal perfect match. He wound up breaking my heart,
almost destroying my world. I almost gave up my life for my true love. 
But most importantly, I almost lost myself. Instead of just letting it 
go, like I should have, I almost took it to the extreme. 

Am I the only one that has ever felt this way? Does everyone want to end
it sometime in his or her life? Do you want the pain to just stop? Or 
do you realize before it's too late what's important to you? Is someone 
really that important to kill yourself over? Is someone more important 
then watching your children grow? 

Was I wrong? Is it too late to get him back? Would it be different then
before? Or would it still be broken promises? Would he give up his life 
for me? Would he be my prince and rescue me? What if I really don't 
need rescuing? What if I just need to feel love in my heart? What if I 
just need to feel again, period? 

I guess life is full of what ifs. This I do know, I love my children! I
can't wait until they are grown, to have a life of their own! To know 
that I raised two wonderful little boys, who are going to be men with 
families of their own. That's reality!!!! 

That's what beats the just dreaming phase any day. That is unconditional
love! It's the only true love out there for me. My children are my life 
and my reality! The just dreaming phase will pass. But my children will 
always be here. They are the only constant things in my life. Love may 
come and go, they won't. They will just grow! They will be my mark on 
this world! My job will be complete; my work will be done. I will die a 
happy woman for raising two fine up-standing men. 


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